The start of a new year is a time where people want to develop new habits.
When I think of resolutions that people typically make, what comes to mind is...
going to the gym more, eating healthier, losing weight, getting good grades, etc.
While I applaud all of you if you commit to your resolutions,
(mostly because I love carbs too much to give them up, and I get lazy throughout the school year)
for me, I wanted my resolutions to benefit be in a more spiritual way this time around.
Instead of creating new habits for me to commit to,
in 2015, I want to break old habits that I know are holding me back in life.
I think this year, it would benefit me to change my mindset in a positive way.
And breaking some cruel habits I have will be a good step in that direction.
With so much crazy change about to happen in my life in just a few short months..
(i.e. college graduation, moving, entering the 9-5 world)
I believe it would help in the long run when I do have so many big moments approaching.
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So here they are.
The 5 Things I Won't Do in 2015.
1.) I won't call myself fat.
This is will be the biggest challenge for myself. And that's why it's at the number one position.
I've never been confident in the way that look.
But I need to start loving myself, my body in particular, if I ever want to have a calm mind.
I'm always so conscious of what I look like.
I only recently started wearing less makeup to class, when I use to put on a full face every day.
I'm committing myself to start loving the body I'm in,
and not accusing it of a reason that I'm not happy.
2.) I won't say "yes" to things that I don't want to.
I am a people pleaser. Ugh, the frustration that comes with wanting to please everyone.
But I'm learning that it's just simply not possible.
I'm going to start utilizing the word "no" more than the word "yes".
I'm going to start thinking more selfishly, and not regret one moment of it.
My happiness is just as important as the individuals' around me.
3.) I won't let people influence my opinions.
I tend to take people and the words they speak to heart.
I will continue to ask for advice when I need it, and ask for help when I'm having trouble.
But I'm done with letting my opinions be altered because people feel as if it's "wrong".
I'm a human being capable of thinking for myself,
and how I feel about anything should not change if people like me or not.
I like what I like and I hate what I hate. Done deal.
4.) I won't keep my feelings bottled up.
I won't. I won't I won't I won't.
I can't make this promise to myself enough.
I'm over feeling anxious, stressed, overwhelmed, upset, down right miserable,
all because I'm too scared to let people know how I'm feeling,
and letting myself be put in a more vulnerable position.
I will cry when I need to (because I believe a good cry does help every once in a while),
but no longer will I hold everything in until my body wants to explode.
5.) I won't compare myself to others.
I do this a lot. I honestly never noticed how much until recently,
but I tend to look at the lives of others and catch myself wishing my life was just as put together.
I now realize that people post the moments they want you to see,
they don't show the nitty-gritty times that happen because why would you want anyone to see that?
No life is completely perfect, everyone goes through some battle or challenge.
My life is completely different from the person on my left and the one on my right.
I need to realize my own blessings more, rather than look at someone else's and wish they were mine.
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Five things might not seem like a huge amount,
but breaking a habit can be just as difficult, if not more, than forming one.
I'm ready to take this challenge head on.
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Happy 2015 everyone!
I hope your year is filled with happy moments and many blessings.
I'm definitely ready to see what it has in store for myself.
I already know it's going to be one filled with much change,
but I'm embracing the fact that my life is about to be completely different,
and knowing I have people on my side to support me through it all.
Step out of your comfort zone.
Until next time,
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